Conflicted...

I've been pondering about my role as a mother a lot over the past week.

It's funny how often I can have two diametrically opposing emotions about being a mother. For instance...

It's hard to have small children/It's hard to let your children grow up.

It's hard to have your child around you all day and all night/It's hard to let them go out of your sphere and not know every moment of their day.

It's hard when they ask you the same question over and over again/ It's hard when they don't ask questions (usually for permission).

It's hard when your toddler whines and throws a fit because they don't want to ride in the shopping cart/It's hard when your older children whine about having to walk through the store.

It's hard doing such a thankless job/It's hard because I can't think of anything else I'd rather be doing.

So to sum up, motherhood is hard.

I guess I'm not that conflicted after all.