I saw a card today and almost bought it to send to my brother and his little family. It had a picture of a sad faced Frankenstein on the front and on the inside it said, "Without you here Halloween sucks." It made me chuckle and the sentiment seemed apropos on several levels this year. But then I heard my mom's voice in the back of my head saying, "Go make some magic for your children." (What she said to me last year when I was having a hard time wanting to celebrate Christmas.) And I had a bittersweet epiphany. Halloween won't suck this year. It will be different. I wish that we could all be together for a Family Fun Day of carving pumpkins and trick-or-treating. I wish that we could watch Huck cruise around in costume and see how he and Lila would dance with Frankenstein and get all sticky from tasting new treats. I will even miss listening to Josh quote every line of every Halloween movie we watch 2 seconds early. "Taffeta darling!" "Taffeta darling!".... And I know I will miss my mom coming to watch Jake's costume parade with me, and singing silly Halloween songs, and reading with great dramatic effect all the old favorite Halloween books to my kids that she used to read to us.
It would be so easy to dwell on what I will miss this holiday season, and really easy to slip into apathy and just wanting to skip the whole thing. I am determined not to do that, for my kids sake. They deserve to have happy, magical memories of the holidays. And I am going to give them that. We are going to decorate and celebrate our way into enjoying these moments. Even if I don't really feel like it. It's like that quote, "Love is a policy, not a feeling." This year in our house, holiday celebrations will be a policy. And even more than that, life will always bring us changes. Some we don't want. And we have to adapt to them. I know that Josh and Elena will be making wonderful, magical memories for themselves and Huck (and probably a lot of new friends, if I don't miss my guess...) as well as absorbing some great new traditions from back east. Heck, my brother can find a way to make Arbor Day a special holiday. I hope that we can do the same. Adapt and adopt traditions that will fit our changing family, but always remembering that family is the most important part of the holidays. I am looking forward to spending time with extended family and friends and also celebrating with just my own little family. It is a year of firsts for us, but it is still going to be magic. After all, I've got an angel on my side making sure I remember that.
Christmas Boot Camp 2012
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