Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Posted by Chrissy at 10:27 PM
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Tomorrow my baby will be three. (Although we have had an all day long
argument discussion about why you can't just go from two to five, no matter how badly you might want to...) I am feeling, once again, the bittersweet realization that comes from watching your youngest child hit milestones and knowing that it's the last time for you as well. Tonight is the last time I will have a two year old and I am both sad and deliriously happy at the same time. I'm also more than a little bit terrified of what three will bring with this child, but that is an entirely different post.
So tonight when I tucked her into bed, I picked a extra long story and lay down next to her. I didn't get mad when she kept wiggling around and tried to play with my hair or the strings of my sweatshirt, I just snuggled her back down and kept reading. She fell asleep on my shoulder, and I just kept reading until the story was finished, enjoying the warm, still weight of her snuggled into my side and the soft little snores she makes in my ear. When I came to the end I closed the book, kissed her cheek, and wiped away a tear knowing that was the last time I will read a bed-time story to my two year old.
As I sat down to post I read back over what I had written when she was born and for each of her birthdays, and cried a little more. Mostly because what I wrote last year is still almost all true, only the attitude and stubbornness quotient has seemed to multiply exponentially (and again, it makes me scared for the coming year). And a little bit because when she was born there was so much sadness about my mom mixed into that experience, plus the whole "I can't believe my baby is so big" thing.
Tonight I will be melancholy, and mourn the passing of time and that my babies aren't babies anymore. Tomorrow I will be happy and ready to make some special birthday memories. After all, it's the last time I'll get to celebrate a 3rd birthday with my child...
Posted by Chrissy at 9:14 PM
Monday, November 28, 2011
I probably shouldn't be posting right now. I should walk away from the computer, count to 10, do some deep breathing exercises, and come back to post when I am not literally quivering with rage. It never ceases to amaze me that a tiny little person who doesn't even come up to my waist yet, can create such total anarchy and chaos in a relatively short time. (I'm honestly not even sure what this one was about, I think it had something to do with bread...)
We have had two very crazy, stressful weeks. We traveled, we got sick, we got better, we cleaned, we had guests, we celebrated a holiday, we partied, we traveled some more, we haven't gone to bed on time more than twice in that time. I get it. Her schedule is all out of whack, her little body and mind are on meltdown and she doesn't have any other coping skills at this point other than screaming like an incoherent little banshee.
I love my daughter dearly but if she lives to see three it might be a miracle (and her birthday is in only two days). Now if you'll excuse me I think I'll go have a crying, screaming, meltdown myself... or maybe not. Writing is pretty cathartic. At least I'm not shaking with the effort it took to not smack her anymore.
Posted by Chrissy at 10:41 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2011
I am borrowing Tiffany's computer to post from fabulous Idaho this evening! Lila and I drove Tiffany and her kiddos home today and are spending the night, because even though Brian is fine with the idea of himself driving to Idaho and back in one day he doesn't think that I can do it… I don't care though. It just gave me more time to hang out with Tiff. We got here around 7, ate dinner, and then watched Sense and Sensibility while stitching on our advent calendars. All around a good night. Tomorrow I'll get up early and head home so I can be there in time to pick up Evie from school. The good news is when the older kids and Brian called to say good night, they all told me how much they missed me. Sounds like I've got good job security!
Posted by Chrissy at 10:57 PM
Saturday, November 26, 2011
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Friday, November 25, 2011
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Thursday, November 24, 2011
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Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I am too busy baking and prepping for the big event tomorrow to post about it tonight. But I will tomorrow, with really awesome pictures. Because that's what bloggers do, we keep a camera in the kitchen to catch the highlights of preparing to cook a turkey. I don't know how this meal will taste, but I guarantee this is the most fun anyone ever had cooking for Thanksgiving. Both Caitlin and Tiffany have snorted soda pop out their nose at least once. Now that's just a party...
Posted by Chrissy at 11:32 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
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Monday, November 21, 2011
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Sunday, November 20, 2011
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Saturday, November 19, 2011
1. We are almost done with having to trick Lila into taking the nasty medicine. (One more dose!)
2. I almost got a free massage today. (I decided to fight with my husband and have a crying meltdown in the parking lot instead. It ended up being cathartic, but nowhere near as relaxing as a massage would have been...)
3. I almost got to go to a movie with my sister. (We decided to go to Tai Pan Trading and look at Christmas decorations instead...)
4. I'm almost ready to take on the turkey for Thanksgiving. (After shopping for Thanksgiving dinner tonight I realize that I have never been properly thankful to my parents and in-laws for the work and expense that goes into a Thanksgiving feast. So, belatedly, thank you Dad, Terrie and Jim for the many delicious holiday meals you have provided for us in the past...)
5. I'm almost ready to decorate my Christmas tree. (See #2, and also, I don't yet have a tree to decorate...)
6. I'm almost excited to have to teach the Sunbeams tomorrow. (With all three children sick and me having to teach, Brian was willing to stay home with the kids. I'm looking forward to sitting quietly through sacrament meeting and actually listening to the speakers and singing the hymns and did I mention sitting quietly...)
Posted by Chrissy at 10:00 PM
Friday, November 18, 2011
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